Well nerves or not, my debut novel, the first in a series (Lost and Found) is being released in just a little while. Yes, I’m nervous about how it will be received, especially by my peers, and I promise to do better the next go around. I have stories roaming around in my head, put down in notes, blurbs and all sorts of ways to remind me of their essence when I return to them.
The craft of writing better and better novels is something I hope to continue working on. Because I want them to be better and better. As writers, don’t we all want that? I suppose its ingrained in us. There’s a lot to be said for having the right background for being a fiction writer like maybe a fine arts degree but I was told when I started this endeavor without one that as long as I had good stories, others could help me develop the techniques of my craft. So ready or not here we go. I’m sure I will get all sorts of reviews and I hope to learn from each and every one. Look for Diamond Road coming soon.
Speaking of diamonds, Neil Diamond said, “Love on the rocks, ain’t no big surprise” and that’s so true. We shouldn’t be surprised by heartache, but inevitably that is what happens. It’s how we deal with it that can make all the difference. My husband is an RC pilot and we always say about the planes, “They go up. They come down, and the descent isn’t always graceful”. The next book in the Lost and Found series, Hope In Carolina will involve loving in difficult situations and sometimes that’s not so graceful. This Friday I found out that two friends were getting divorced and Saturday found out another two are getting married. It highlighted how versatile the heart has to be sometimes, sticking it out or giving up.
There’s just so many times your heart can be broken before you learn how to recover faster than you did the last time. Sounds cold I know, but it’s realistic. If you are fortunate you will love a lot in your life. And please don’t mistake my intention here. You should never shut yourself off from love, but learning how to land safely when the “falling” is over becomes an extreme value when you find the heart that once soared now leaves you in pain.
You have to teach yourself what to do, what to think and who to spend your time with. Because you will have to go to bed and sleep instead of tossing so you can actually function at work the next day. When you come home, even if it’s toast and peanut butter you’ve gotta eat. And getting your mind focused on something else is imperative because if you aren’t careful you’ll extend your misery by reliving all of the good and the bad.
And let me finish by saying, I intellectually know all of this. Putting it into practice, well I’ve never been really great at it. So I guess here we go again. Maybe these things will help the character Hope in my next book even if for me not so much.