Ever wake on Christmas and open your gifts only to not get that one thing you really wanted oh so badly? Come on now. I know, we are all adults and many of us just want to be with family and really don’t go in for all the comercialisms of the holiday season. But, you’ve experienced this right?
My friend posted a photo of his daughter with a disappointed look on her face as she clearly did not really want the item in the box that she was opening yesterday morning. It wasn’t what she had been hoping for. Seeing this made me remember the first time I had those feelings of disspointment at what I received for a gift. Guilt immediately followed. See I was raised to be kind and show appreciation for any gift I was given. Still doesn’t mean I got all I wanted or any of what I wanted when gifts were opened. I was a child then after all, right?
Today I am reminded of that feeling again. I have been wanting something and it just isn’t working out. Time seems to be working against me, and while I know this would have been so much fun and a very memorble adventure with my friend, it doesn’t seem that it’s meant to be. Today… (or tomorrow as it turns out).
Learning how to let go of what we wanted and didn’t get is truly a mark of maturity. I’m not quite there yet apparently but I’m still working on it. I still want that time with my friend. I’ve learned that it’s best to not get too upset at what doesn’t work out, because often something much better finds its way to you a little later on.
I do hope your Christmas was wonderful, and despite all of the things that could have made ours miserable, it was full of love and that, after all is the best gift. It is free and priceless all at the same time. It is the thing that means the most, just like the time we give to one another because we love each other. Love and time… they just go hand in hand.