Happy New New Year! by Pat Bertram

champagneWhen I looked at the day on my cell phone yesterday and noticed it was the 31st, my first thought was, “New Years Eve, already?” It felt good thinking that this year was over and that a new one would begin in just a few hours, but then the truth sank in — this year would not be over for another eleven months.

This has not been a good year so far — not the worst by a very wide margin, but not good, either. It began inexplicably with tears, and grief has been with me most of the month. (In less than two months, it will be three years since the death of my life mate/soul mate, and that anniversary looms large on my emotional horizon.)

It’s not just the grief upsurge that has made this a hard month — there have been too many disappointments and setbacks for such a new year. Friendships have ended, new hopes have not been realized, blog and book rankings have fallen. There have been some good things. For example, I was notified that Grief: The Great Yearning came in second place for a book award, but any pleasure in that recognition was destroyed when I got a follow-up email telling me I’d been demoted to third place. (I’m still reeling from that one. I’ve never heard of anyone being demoted before.)

I need a new start, and I’m going to make one. In a way, every day is the beginning of a new year, but today is also the beginning of a new month, which seems an auspicious time to begin anew. So . . .

Happy New New Year! Wishing you a great new start and much happiness during the coming months.

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Pat Bertram is the author of the suspense novels Light Bringer, More Deaths Than One, A Spark of Heavenly Fire, and Daughter Am I. Bertram is also the author of Grief: The Great Yearning, “an exquisite book, wrenching to read, and at the same time full of profound truths.” All Bertram’s books are published by Second Wind Publishing.

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4 responses to “Happy New New Year! by Pat Bertram

  1. Pat,
    Although our circumstances are quite different, I too have had a difficult and challenging year, but I want you to know that I’ve discovered you and I have more support than we know. Just about the time I feel overwhelmed and perplexed, someone writes or calls to tell me I’m valuable or I’ve said or done something they needed to know. Today is my turn to let you know many people here at Second Wind are grateful for all you do. We are also people who read your blog posts faithfully, even though we don’t always leave comments. You ARE valuable, and cared for! Those who don’t appreciate you don’t deserve your concern. Here’s to new beginnings!

    • Ah, Coco. What a lovely thing to say! Thank you. Getting to know you has been one of the bright spots in these dark and stormy times.

      I toasted my new year last night, and it made me smile, so this new new year is off to an auspicious beginning.

  2. Let’s go punch them in the nose, Pat. I’ve never heard of taking away a prize before…
    I’m limiting time in front of computer myself, as my back has gone critical and I’m in Phys. Therapy. Yes, despair is a frequent companion for many of us, especially artists and creative people, but try to keep your chin up, as your real friends and fans do appreciate your work.

    • Juliet, they said it was a typo. Sheesh. Normally the demotion wouldn’t have bothered me so much, since I felt awkward about gaining recognition for a book I wish I hadn’t had occasion to write, but for once I decided to do a bit of bragging and posted the information on facebook and other places. That will teach me not to brag!

      So sorry about your back. Wishing you a happy new new year. It sounds as if you need it as much as I do.

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